It’s okay to cry dear…

Someone broke your heart, they got cold. The love you shared grew cold and one day he/she was gone, never to be seen again. Life used to be so beautiful; full of dreams and possibilities. Dreams with a happy ending as you envisioned the two of you reminiscing youthful jokes at ninety. For long hours you stayed building up your dream on the artistic table. You drew your hopes and stories you hoped you could tell to posterity, perhaps even friends. Inspire one or two people and hopefully make the world a better place. With that person, you were a dreamer and believed yours will pass the test of time. But how wrong, and how quickly dreams get shattered. He/She left, even without goodbye or maybe there was even a goodbye.

Unfortunate for you, you had dived in too deep and the shattered dream came like a hurricane. You were unprepared for no one really prepares for a heart break. It just happens. He/She left, and so took your life. You imagined telling of stories but never anticipated yours ending like this. But life happens, and sometimes pain is one of those things we have to deal with.

He/She moved on. Its months but it still hurts you; sometimes. A simple memory drives you down the lane, and your world breaks down again. You cry, you want to reach out but fear holds you back, because you know that it will hurt even more to know that he moved on. Sometimes you want to hate them, but you realize love and hate can’t co-exist. One has to give way for the other, and your heart still clings to that love that hurts, love that is unreturned, and love that breaks you to a thousand tiny pieces.

Those days, you cry. Its many months or even years but a smell of his cologne or her perfume on another awakens the memory and you can’t help but shed a tear or two. On those lonely nights when you really need him/her but he is no longer the person you knew. The loneliness hurts and you want to seek attention from anyone, any girl or any man within their reach, even just for a simple hug and a reminder that you are awesome.

Healing takes time. Sometimes years; sometimes months. It’s okay to relapse sometimes and cry when it hurts. Its human and we are all different. Cry, talk out, scream to the world or your journal like I did here http://lizzieadisawrites.blogspot.co.ke/2017/02/letter-to-my-almost-lover-that-never-was.html sometime back and just do something different. It helps. No matter the intensity of the pain, it always gets better with time.

I am listening to the song by Jenkins, part of the Lyrics says:

“My God is awesome, Heals me when I am broken,

Strength where I’ve been weakened, praise His holy name”

You are not alone in that pain but it shall be well